I am really looking for a long lasting relationship. I am really alone and single and I absolutely cannot stand it any longer. Being single and alone is causing me major stomach aches. Anyone who thinks I will find someone easily or to work on myself or love myself or enjoy what I do have is delusional. That is not me. I am not here to spam anyone. I just hope people will read this and understand how serious I am. People are so focused on the negative and only see me as desperate and nothing more. The fact is being alone and single and being shut out and treated like I am dead is taking a toll on my health. I am the wrong person to be turned down. Everytime someone turns me down, I lose hope and I am non functional because I am so upset.