For as long as I can remember I've always had doubt in myself. Wether it
be if I am capable or something or if I'm simply good enough.
So when I started showing signs of mental illness (in my case
depression) I was the first to question the validity of what I was
feeling; I would wonder wether what I was feeling was actually a
completely normal experience and I was overreacting or just looking for
something thats wrong with me. Even when I was officially diagnosed with
M.E. I can't help thinking that the symptoms I was experiencing were
actually me just overthinking everything.
I think most of this is due to people like my parents simply not
believing me when I was little if I ever said anything was wrong. I
believed that everyone experienced the things I did and I just made more
noise about it and I was making it a lot bigger than it was for
everyone else.
So after thinking about this a while I've realised I really need to
learn to trust my own body and if somethings not right I should believe
that. I should be honest with what I can and can't do, what my limits
are and learn to accept that I'm limited in ways that other "normal"
people may not be.
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i hope you are still learning to trust yourself, -i think its great that you've written this , i had similar difficulty with trusting my own instincts & what i sensed or 'picked up' but i too am trusting myself more. All the best to you : )
Well said! Be happy living the life that you are and the way you are! Not worry about the lives of others that they take for granted and not possible for ourselves. I wouldn't want that either!!!!
understanding the limitations that your own body forces on you is a great step forward after that comes the realisation that while you may not be able to do everything you used to enjoy it frees up your time to find new things that you will enjoy :)
I've had many problems with social miscommunications, different perceptions, physical clumsiness etc. I accept myself and I accept others for who they are. I accept our differences. I feel hurt at times by ridicule but I learned to smile back with pride that my difference will make a unique difference in this world. I find, for example, that because of limited perceptions where I overlook things most people see, I see beautiful and important things that most NTs do not notice.
I do not focus on what I do not like about another, instead I focus on appreciating what I like in the other. I personally found find that repeatedly transformed poor relationships for the better. We both come to appreciate the best in both ourselves and in the other.
Basically anything can be transformed, that any poison can be changed into great medicine or elixir..I believe your life and mission are far more valuable than all the treasures in the galaxy.
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Posted by code0man
i hope you are still learning to trust yourself, -i think its great that you've written this , i had similar difficulty with trusting my own instincts & what i sensed or 'picked up' but i too am trusting myself more. All the best to you : )
Posted by matty686
Well said! Be happy living the life that you are and the way you are! Not worry about the lives of others that they take for granted and not possible for ourselves. I wouldn't want that either!!!!
Posted by darkhunter123
understanding the limitations that your own body forces on you is a great step forward after that comes the realisation that while you may not be able to do everything you used to enjoy it frees up your time to find new things that you will enjoy :)
Posted by roquefort
I've had many problems with social miscommunications, different perceptions, physical clumsiness etc. I accept myself and I accept others for who they are. I accept our differences. I feel hurt at times by ridicule but I learned to smile back with pride that my difference will make a unique difference in this world. I find, for example, that because of limited perceptions where I overlook things most people see, I see beautiful and important things that most NTs do not notice. I do not focus on what I do not like about another, instead I focus on appreciating what I like in the other. I personally found find that repeatedly transformed poor relationships for the better. We both come to appreciate the best in both ourselves and in the other. Basically anything can be transformed, that any poison can be changed into great medicine or elixir..I believe your life and mission are far more valuable than all the treasures in the galaxy.