how to you reconcile with the fact that logically speaking, you will never meet someone and that you will be alone forever? i literally have no energy to socialize when getting done with work and school because i need to decompress and have lots of space and so i probably will never be in a relationship. but everything is bad and i made a promise that if i don't have a partner within a year i will kill myself and i actually will lmao so yeah idk what to do