AS SOON AS SOMEONE TALKS TO ME IM AUTOMATICALLY NOT AT HOME ANYMORE IM OUTSIDE I MAY STILL WANT TO TALK WITH THEM BUT ITS NOT AS COMFORTABLE AS WHEN IM HERE ALONE WITH MYSELF LONELINESS CAN MAKE ME ANGRY BUT ITS ALSO MORE COMFORTABLE AT THE SAME TIME BUT EVEN IF I NEVER GO OUT ID PREFER BEING AROUND PEOPLE IN VERY CROWDED PLACES ITS TOO COMPLICATED TO EXPLAIN I DONT UNDERSTAND IT MYSELF NOTHING MAKES SENSE ANYMORE