Autistic Dating

hmm.. sapiency is a tricky business. about me.. well I am a human male approximately 6ft 1 inch in height, my IQ was 230 in junior high school, that's important methinks, Although I cannot seriously regard IQ tests as validity of *comprehensive* intelect. They wanted me to solve puzzle after puzzle and because I solved puzzles so well they "figured out" I was 30 points north of albert einstein in the 6th grade. foolishness if you were to ask me.. Conceptually, my mind, or perhaps my soul itself is formed much differently then the vast majority of people, psychologists [witch doctors] tell me I have high functioning autism, which does not surprise me in the least. I'm just not right in the head.. I feel many emotions that most people cannot also feel, including ones often that aren't just mine. I used to think my emotional/social processing centers of my brain were absent or corrupted, but I realized these 'errors' were in fact symptoms of a much deeper emotional and intellectual connection to external and internal stimuli most could not fathom. It seems that I am actually far more adept at feeling other people's emotions then my own at least on a reactory level.. i've seen so many people hurt so many people, I have lived in abject poverty with *very* upper class friends and neighbors.. I've seen so much evil done by the hands of the honestly innocent, albeit ignorant wealthy.. I've seen slavery disguised as fair capitalism, and I have seen peaceful communism turn into impoverished 3rd world dictatorships. We have had the technology to eradicate world hunger and thirst for well over 80 years, yet we..... Often wonder if our species will survive. Just because you can and have created a sustained alcubierre field utilizing the cashmere effect does not mean that anyone will understand quantum electrodynamics or show any kind of interest. I can conceptualize and construct any machine you could possibly imagine, I've used ultrasonic frequencies to force precipitation from a cloud in a ~1m stream to water my orchids in the high-desert. I love plants and all life [except arachnids, i've always hated bloody spiders, the only organism I kill inside]. I love morning glories- one of my favorite flowers, english ivy- hedera helix, another delight. I've never hurt anyone in my life, but I have been known to give all my money to homeless people.
hmmm what else? religion! yes okay abrahamic faiths I have no respect for- they kill each other so much blood spilt for the sake of minor cultural differences. If I had to define my spirituality it would be some weird combination of Strong Agnosticism, Buddhism, Taoism and positively RABID humanism. coffee I drink only black.
All of this intellect means nothing I would gladly throw it all away to have a family and a home that was safe from the evils of the rest of my race. Extreme Intellect for the price of my soul, perhaps I made a deal with the devil before I was born, I don't know. Autism is a helluva drug my friends. I just cant be alone in all this thought anymore. If you've read all this all I can say is thank you for taking the time. thank you I will be right here if you need me