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"Friends"? What are they to me?

Posted by snowflake101

Hello lovely people, I'm here too share a important part of my life, now, just to tell you all, //I AM ->"NOT"<- LOOKING FOR ANY FORM OF SYMPATHY WHAT SO EVER!\\ If you have a problem, "do not" comment and/or message me, I have better things to do then argue of not wanting sympathy, thank you and let's begin!

• Lets start off way back when I was with my mother, my "only" mother when I wasn't with my dad, that my mother had to move me away from him at 3 years old, but my dad is out of this picture, cause where it starts, I was only like 4/5 years old.

• Before you go on telling me "oh, this is irrelevant" and shut off from what I am trying to say won't help at all due to having plenty of stress, but, let's get back to the topic at hand of the from 4/5 years, in primary. I wasn't any of your average child, what I would do is that instead of being a normal kid and making friends, I just blocked myself away from the world, my only friends was my thoughts, so, you would had known by this point I'm not a very social person while our and about, while at home, I was pretty much giddy.

• As years gone by when I went into my last primary at the age of 8/11, you might had guessed it, no friends, I basically isolated myself by curling up in a place where I could become I'll, no one in school really took interest in be king my friend, but, even if I had made a friend and moved away from them for too long, I'd been forgotten from their memories, because I'm not worth their time at all of something else.

• By High School, I just gained one friend, well, she only lasted a year, probs forgotten about me, but that hadn't changed to the fact I had to be kept down a year, start a new year, a new form, and also, new students, this was the part I struggled a lot, no one in my form was my friend, I pretended to smile, laugh, heck, even pretended to enjoy myself! Even lied to my carers during high school that I had "friends" when secretly, I had none, no one listened to me, no one helped, the only people who listened and helped was teachers,  it was like I was invisible to the world and I still feel invisible to the world.

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Posted by snowflake101

I never been to a con.... Live tour... Or even anything like that... But thank you for understanding what I had been through

Posted by imnotscary

Thank you for writing this. It can take a lot of effort and anxiety to write anything (good/bad, long/short, recent/distant) about yourself online. You never know how people will react, or if it will come across the way you want. But this site is here for this reason, and so the more people who tell stories about themselves the better. It doesnt really sound like you had a very great time at school, and it wasn't that long ago that you left either. I did not have a great time at school myself, especially in senior school, and there were several lessons where I was without my friends, and although I did not have very many (well.. two really) I did have friends. I don't know how you got through it having nobody... well... I suppose you got used to it. That just seems even worse. I hope that your interests in art and cosplay can help you find more like-minded people to get to know you.